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Powerful, darkly funny and heart-breaking, Shtum is a story about fathers and sons, autism, and dysfunctional relationships.


Ben Jewell has hit breaking point. His ten-year-old son Jonah has severe autism and Ben and his wife, Emma, are struggling to cope.


When Ben and Emma fake a separation - a strategic decision to further Jonah's case in an upcoming tribunal - Ben and Jonah move in with Georg, Ben's elderly father. In a small house in North London, three generations of men - one who can't talk; two who won't - are thrown together.




✱ Pages: 368 (paperback)
✱ Publication date: 7 April 2016 (Orion)
✱ Provided by Netgalley in exchange for an honest review


Seeing the cover was part of my decision to pick this up. Then I thought about the title, read the synopsis, and figured this might be a really emotionally honest story. And I like that - even though it kind of makes me cry, usually.

Important Themes

There's probably something here for every reader to identify or at least empathise with: autism, alcoholism, dysfunctional families, trying to do what's best for our children. Topics like cancer and WWII are brought up too. Difficult topics, but approached with an honesty in story-telling that I found simultaneously refreshing and upsetting.

It's not a surprise that SHTUM gets a bit heavy. It's emotional. It takes an honest look at things, and that can be emotionally exhausting for the reader. But with the darkness come some brighter moments too, and those make life worthwhile, right?

Story-Telling

In SHTUM it falls on Ben to make some difficult decisions, and to find a way to make Jonah's life better. This is what drives the story. But of course Ben's opinion isn't the only one that's taken into account. There are also social services and other official bodies that have a say, which makes life pretty tricky for this family. 

Because of this, interspersed between chapters are letters, a court procession, and at one point flashbacks. It's an interesting way of telling the story. We don't often get to see the characters' immediate reaction to a letter from the social services, for example, but we do always see its effects in the long run. I thought the addition of letters sent to Ben, Emma, and Georg was a good move. It kind of amps up the tension a bit - just seeing a letter from the social services in the pages of a book makes me nervous, apparently!

The Characters

I found the protagonist, Ben, difficult to understand sometimes, but knowing he was at least trying his best for Jonah was his redeeming quality. Ben's wife Emma was difficult to understand too, because we mainly see what Ben sees - or decides to see. It's interesting how one conversation later on in the story can thoroughly change your perception of a character.

Ten-year-old Jonah is obviously a character very central to the story. He gets upset if he doesn't get what he wants, or if his daily ritual changes - but he doesn't speak: he can't communicate. On the other hand, the smallest things can make him happy - and his joy is wonderful, unburdened by all the worries the rest of us carry around.

Probably my favourite character was Ben's elderly father, Georg. Georg, who had grown up, lost his family to WWII, and moved to England. Georg, who refused to tell Ben about his past, not wanting to burden his child with it. Georg, who starts telling his story to his Grandson, Jonah. Really, just the way he keeps chatting to Jonah, and how proud he is of his grandson is just wonderful.

Not the easiest book to read because of the very emotive themes, but a solid work of literary fiction. A lot of feels, you guys. A lot of feels.
Difficult topics in literature - are they your bag or not? Which book makes you cry the most? (I'd probably say All the Bright Places. That book reduced me to a human-shaped puddle of misery, laying on the floor, staring at the ceiling. You know.)

Hello lovelies! Two really lovely book bloggers, Molly @ Molly's Book Nook and Geraldine @ Corralling Books did this tag (really, go check out their posts, they're awesome!) and basically I'm pretending that they both tagged me although they didn't. Let's all pretend, please.
[edit: the wonderful Marie @ Drizzle & Hurricane Books did actually tag me for this! {yes, for realsies! I didn't even resort to blackmail or anything}]

VITAL STATS

Name: Annika
Nicknames: Mostly ridiculous ones friends come up with when I complain I don't have a nickname. Grannika is one of my favourites. I made a reference to Titus Andromedon yesterday and my BFF ran away with it. Titika and Annikus were what she came up with, but then we figured Annikomedon makes me sound like a komodo dragon. So anyway. Crazy nicknames? Check.
Birthday: 31 July! 
Star Sign: The lion one, you know, Leo.
Occupation: Master's student. Does that count? No? I'm never going to do anything useful with my life? NOOO

APPEARANCE:

Hair colour: Ginger. Proud of it. (we do have souls!)
Hair length: Short-ish? Like a lob? A long bob? You know what I mean? I hope you do because I really don't.
Eye colour: Blue
Best Feature: You're asking me? Ask someone else, anyone else.
Braces: Nope. I was so afraid of the dentist when I was little that I probably would've died.
Piercings: Ears.
Tattoos: I do have one, actually! It's tiny though. I took it when I was in Romania for a summer.
Right or Left: Right! Actually, left too. For playing chords on the guitar. Let's pretend I'm ambidextrous.

FIRSTS

Best Friend: Elisa! We met at uni. Singing Broken hearted hoover fixer sucker guy in the library > instant friendship. (okay, I was 20 by that point, but it counts as a first!)
Award: I feel like I've never received any? WAIT NO - I once *almost* won the alcoholic of the year award. I was the runner up, and it's an awesome award, so does that count?
Sport: Hahahaha no.
Real Holiday: Like a beach and summer kind of holiday? Probably Croatia a few years back. We took a coach and it took over 24 hours to get there. We drove through France, Switzerland, Italy, and Slovenia to get there, and the first time we were asked for passports was when we entered Croatia. Insane, right?!
Concert: Umm. I haven't been to any big ones. Mainly just little gigs in pubs. I last went to see Amber Run in Nottingham and they were amazing!

FAVOURITES

Film: Walking on Sunshine. It's the worst musical ever. It's so bad it's good.
TV Show: Once Upon A Time, Castle, Doctor Who, IT Crowd... I could keep going.
Colour: Blue, Green, Purple... All colours?
Song: Well, at the moment, I keep singing/rapping Satisfied from Hamilton (seriously, I'm so obsessed, and I swear, I know the entire rap part of it word for word).
Restaurant: Slug & Lettuce. Also there's a lovely place called Mexigo where I used to live and I miss the burrito bowls so much!
Books: the good kind...? Pride & Prejudice? The Name of the Wind? any David Mitchell book? At the moment I'm also in love with When We Collided. Should I carry on?
Shoes: Boots. Preferably black.

CURRENTLY

Feeling: Confused. WHO AM I?!
Single or Taken: Single. And happy, and no I don't want to go out with your friend ;)
Eating: I have tea? Does that count?
Thinking About: I'm drawing a blank here. I'm not thinking? Oh, no, I know! Dragons.
Watching: Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries. I'm almost to the end of season 2 now!
Wearing: Leggings and my Hangover Hoodie. It's my uniform, *and* my pyjamas.

FUTURE:

Want Children: I have two younger sisters that I looked after when I was growing up, so I'm kind of ambivalent for now.
Want to be Married: If someone comes along, sure. Why not?
Careers in Mind: I'm a grad student. Please don't.
Where You Want To Live: I guess, somewhere new? Maybe Scotland? Or maybe move back south? I have no idea, but I need to move somewhere in September when my lease runs out. Exciting times.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

God: Nope, kind of grew up atheist.
Miracles: Sure. The non-magical kind.
Love at First Sight: Not really, no.
Ghosts: Eeehh.
Aliens: As in life somewhere out there? Yeah, I think that's kind of likely.
Soul Mates: Maybe? I'd have to find proof.
Heaven: I guess not? I'd actually hate to think of anything eternal.
Hell: Same as above.
Kissing on the First Date: Why not? If you want to go for it. I know I have. So I won't judge!
Yourself: I try!

Those were some tricky questions!
And okay, so I answered with a lot of maybes and question marks. Oops.
Well, that's me.
I would like to tag all of you - can I do that? If you're up for it, do the tag and then let me know so I can get to know you better, too!
If you made it all the way through that massive post - wow! Look at you! You're pretty awesome. I'm sending you a virtual hug right now! Do we have anything in common? I would love to know!


I'm catching up on my ARCs - and you'll be delighted to know (or not) that I finally ventured into historical romance (yes, I'm looking at you, Ezrah!).


Orphaned and living at Fellsworth School, Isabel Creston and her young stepsister Lizzie go from the strict morales of Fellsworth to the high-handed care and guidance of an aunt that Isabel can't even remember meeting.
Things at their new home, Emberwilde, are very different from the school, something strange is going on in the woods near the estate, and somehow Isabel finds herself with two possible suitors.


✱ Pages: 352 (ebook)
✱ Series: Treasures of Surrey #2 (stories in series not strictly related)
✱ Publication: May 2016 (Thomas Nelson)
✱ Provided by Netgalley in exchange for an honest review
Amazon UK | ✱ Amazon US


The cover is pretty. I was feeling guilty for avoiding things labelled 'romance.' I thought maybe it was fate?

I'm pretty picky when it comes to romance in books. It's either because I'm not a romantic, or because I'm too much of a one. Who knows? Whatever the case, I feel hesitant about picking up books that actually focus on the romance - because I'm so afraid of them getting it wrong and ruining it for me. Luckily for me, in addition to a sweet romance, Dawn at Emberwilde also provided some intrigue in the form of a nice sub-plot, so overall I was a happy camper.

The characters are the driving force here, and Isabel is precisely the kind of protagonist I like: caring, stubborn, and knows her own mind. Especially when it comes to a historical setting, I appreciate a woman actually having agency - or at least trying to achieve it. Alternating points-of-view for the chapters make the story move efficiently, and we get to know the two main characters, Isabel and Mr. Galloway. well enough to care about their happiness.

So yes, I did like this HR novel. It was sweet and innocent and romantic and I enjoyed every page of it, okay? (No, I'm not being overly defensive.)

Against my initial expectations, I did enjoy this one. If you have a sweet-tooth and you're in the mood for a light Regency romance, look no farther ;)
So. Would it be acceptable to go on a bender and start on pride & prejudice next?
 
What are your feelings about historical romance? Any recommendations? Let me know in the comments :)
The Sunday Post is a weekly meme for sharing our news and plans for the next week, hosted by the wonderful Kimba @ Caffeinated Book Reviewer.

Hello lovelies!
Since I'm doing Camp NaNoWriMo, this week has been about writing (yes, again, I'm pretty boring, sorry!). I think I've made it about halfway into my draft - I hit 31k on Monday night, and I'm hoping whatever muses are currently taking pity on me continue to do so.

My yoga mat has become a place for wine-drinking and typing. (Sorry, yoga mat. You're serving a new purpose. We all have to make sacrifices.)

Since I'm mostly plotting, writing, and reading at the moment, my sense of time is all wonky (as is my sleeping schedule but that problem's always there). In any case, I've given up on knowing which day of the week it is. I trust other people to remind me. (I saw Greg's Sunday Post was up and remembered it was time for this. Yep. Thanks, Greg!)


Random Ramblings: I talk about Camp NaNo
(and spill secrets about my WIP!)
Conversations: Diversity and Mental Health
(a new meme you should definitely check out!)

When We Collided by Emery Lord
An excellent YA story with themes of first love, family, and mental illness
The Sign of One by Eugene Lambert
An intriguing page-turner of a sci-fi thriller

I'm on a book buying ban but...

Oftomes publishing was doing a sale on their kindle books! If you're quick you might be able to still get them for 99p off Amazon (I believe the offer is available on Amazon US as well)
   

I went to a charity book sale and the result was this:
  Norwegian Wood
  Pride & Prejudice
 The Aspern Papers and the Turn of the Screw
 Mrs Dalloway 
 The Outsider
 One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich
  Cymbeline
 The Thirteenth Tale
 Saturday
 The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society
I also received a few ARCs I'm pretty excited about!
These are all set for publication in June:

  

✦ Review of SHTUM by Jem Lester
✦ Review of Dawn at Emberwilde by Sarah E. Ladd
(I finally took a dip into historical romance!)
✦ Possibly a writing update
How was your week? Tell me one good thing that happened to you, or maybe tell me your favourite book from the past week or two?



Conversations is a brilliant, brand-new, fortnightly meme by Geraldine @ Corralling Books and Joan @ Fiddler Blue. Check the details and get involved!

The theme for April is Popular Issues, and the topic for this week is:
Are there any particular diverse books you read more and why? 


When I settled down to think about today's topic, I first thought of all the LGBTQ books I've only recently started reading. But then I'd just finished All the Bright Places, and I was wanting to talk about that without reviewing it because it hit me so hard emotionally that I don't think I can. So BAM, today we're taking this chance to talk about mental health and illness in books, and in life. I focus on depression here, because that's the devil I know best.

Diverse Topics in Literature

So firstly: why do we talk about this so much? Why is it so important to have diversity in the books we read?
For me, this is about equality, and the equal representation of different kinds of people in literature. We read to sympathise with characters, because we understand or want to understand what they're going through. I think that's especially important when it comes to things like different cultural backgrounds, mental health, sexual orientation - things that are sometimes difficult to discuss, because we're afraid people might not understand, or because they're not in our situation and really can't understand. Bottom line: everyone deserves to read about characters they can relate to.

Mental Health and Social Stigma

“It's my experience that people are a lot more sympathetic if they can see you hurting, and for the millionth time in my life I wish for measles or smallpox or some other easily understood disease just to make it easier on me and also on them.”
- Felix Finch in Jennifer Niven's All the Bright Places



So many people still think of mental illness as something you can 'get over.' It upsets me - because we're not admitting that people need help. We're instead making them feel more guilty for being ill. The thing is that guilt is already there, and we have no right to make it worse for anyone. Because this social stigma still persists, I think it's important that we discuss these topics, bring them up in literature, incite conversation, and try to make it more accepted to talk about our battles with mental illness.

Medication

"Diego kept saying he felt like he should be able to control it. Like - he wanted to reason his way out of it, Because it's your own mind, right? But of course it doesn't work that way. Sometimes you just need medicine."- Ellie in Emery Lord's When We Collided


This is a topic that seems to divide people - even those who may desperately be in need of medication. I'm always interested to see how it is handled in books. It takes a lot of courage to start taking medication for a mental illness, and continuing to take them can be even harder. Which is why no one should make us feel like we're supposed to be 'stronger than that.' Because some people do argue against these, and some sufferers (even in books) talk about how they one day decided that they had had enough of suffering depression and being stuck in their bed. They didn't need meds, they were stronger than the rest of us. This kind of talk really upsets me because for a lot of people medication can be the thing that slowly helps them to feel better. There is no shame in that, and no one should make us feel like taking meds is a bad thing.


So What Can We Do?

“I can tell you that “Just cheer up” is almost universally looked at as the most unhelpful depression cure ever. It’s pretty much the equivalent of telling someone who just had their legs amputated to “just walk it off.” Some people don’t understand that for a lot of us, mental illness is a severe chemical imbalance rather just having “a case of the Mondays.” Those same well-meaning people will tell me that I’m keeping myself from recovering because I really “just need to cheer up and smile.” That’s when I consider chopping off their arms and then blaming them for not picking up their severed arms so they can take them to the hospital to get reattached.” 
- Jenny Lawson, Furiously Happy: A Funny Book About Horrible Things

Personally: books help - books that talk about mental illness, and books that don't even consider the topic. But speaking as someone who fights depression every day, what we need is people to be understanding. I realise how hard it is to deal with a friend's or a family member's mental illness, I really do. We can lash out at the people we love, we can seem uncaring, sometimes we may not react to what you're saying at all. None of it is because of you. It's because something awful is happening inside our brains, and we can't control it.

Compassion, open dialogue (as hard as it is for everyone involved), and kindness are the things that bring some light into our worlds. And sometimes all you need is knowing someone is there and cares.
Okay, so this is such an important topic to me, as you may have noticed. Chip in, let me know what you think, ask questions if you feel like it! Also: talking about such personal topics, yay or nay? And finally: what diverse books do you read?